Silently loving you from afar

I watch you from a far
Behind the shadows of men,
How I wished I could tell you,
How much you mean for me,
How much I love you 

Just by seeing your face,
It can light up my days,
Just by seeing your smile,
Gives me strength to face my problems,
Just by seeing your beautiful eyes,
Could send me to a fantasy world,

I wish I could always laugh by your side,
I wish I could stay right next to you for every single second,
Because seconds for me feels like minutes,
And minutes feels like hours when I'm next to you,
I wish I could cuddle you close and wipe your tears,
Each time you shed one, and each time you feel down,
I wish I could hold you tight and never let go,

I wish you were mine, and only mine to keep,
Because I love you so much..
But I can't,

I'm only just a watcher,
 I do not have courage,
I hide my presence behind the shadows of men,
I only can admire, even though it hurts me more,
I only can wait, even though it tears my heart to pieces,
And I only can watch, even though it won't do me any better,
I wished I had a chance,
To get to know you more,
Even if you already have a special someone,
Even if she is better than me,

I just want to be closer to you,
I just want to be with you, beside you,
No matter what happens, even if this world spins the opposite,
I'd still be next to you, never leaving your side,

But I'm just a stranger,
An alien in front of you,
I'm no one to you,
Nothing but a stalker,
That secretly admires you,
That secretly longs for you,
That secretly falls deeply in love with you,

What can someone like me do?
I failed to exist in your life,
I'm just a coward,
Who doesn't have enough courage,
To tell what I feel about you,
To tell you how this heartache beats too hard,
To tell you how my mind goes crazy by just hearing your voice,

I'm just a stranger anyway,
Nothing but a stranger..
I only stare and cry in my heart,
And day by day,
You seem so far away . . 

loving you is like having a beautiful wound :)